chronic dry eye syndrome vs. photographer

why hello there! Its been a while. I wanted to let you know that I have not fallen off the planet. I suffer from chronic dry eye syndrome. I have tried every medicine and procedure out there, but short of a miracle, I will not be cured any time soon. (I even tape my eyes shut at night...weird I know) My chronic dry eye syndrome affects many areas in my life; But specifically the time I spend staring at a computer screen editing photos is increasingly painful.

God told me to pursue photography years and years ago and I did not listen. Almost 2 years ago I decided to obey. Around the same time my chronic dry eye was diagnosed. I have been struggling with learning how to do this whole photography job thing and handle my eye pain. For a long time I was so excited about doing photos that I would edit immediately and have them back in clients hands in a week time. I have figured out that is not healthy for my stress level as well as my eyes. I have decided to be a bit more realistic with my timing and scheduling. I also am choosing to be more picky about the situations and settings I will photograph. I will not longer be pursuing photography to be a part or full time career for me. I will be doing just a little on the side as long as my eyes can deal with it.

I love taking photos; Always have and always will. The more I seek God during this struggle I have had, the more I have felt that this was more and more about me trusting God. Its been cool to pursue a passion of mine, but I really think this experience didn't even have anything to do with photos. It was about me obeying and trusting in the Lord. And I praise Him for showing me this truth!

Soooo...

I am still here

I'm still photographing

Just less :)

I actually have a pretty full fall.

I start off with my last wedding on Saturday! I guess because its my last wedding I am not really nervous. I am just excited!! If God heals my eyes, as my 5 year old is asking Him to, I might pick weddings back up in the future. But for now the amount of editing that weddings create, I just can't do them anymore. But I plan on going out with a bang! Its going to be at Heritage Farm!! I can't wait!

Soon to follow after the wedding are some sweet kiddos and a family shoot. :)

Thanks for hanging on to read all of this. I actually only visit other blogs to look at pictures, I don't like reading them much. But all of this needed to be said. :)

Any prayers to the Lord about my condition would be really appreciated. I'll be back in a few weeks!!